Unfiltered

I want to be unfiltered
Acne
Messy hair
Kinks
Unrelaxed hair
Makeup forgotten
Stretch marks
No abs
Unfiltered

I want to be unrefurbished
Unshaved legs
Eyebrows not fleeked
Hanes, not Victoria’s Secret
Chipped nails
Legs not crossed at the ankles
Back slouched
Undefined calves
Unfiltered

I want to be unfiltered
Undefined
I want to want without being needy
Single, but not lonely
Be alone without being bitter
Skinny without being anorexic
Always hungry without being fat
I want to know how to not cook, iron, clean
To not want to be a mother,
Nor a stay at home mom

I want to laugh
Loudly
Head thrown back
Mouth wide open
I want to be sexy,
But not slutty
I want to dress how I want
But not be “begging for it”

I want to be rambling thoughts
Scattered ums and I-don’t-knows
I want to be the roughest draft of me
Unedited
With all the typos
Broken English,
Creole, smatterings of internet slang

I want to think too much
But not be too smart
I want to lead,
But not be classed “bossy”
To follow
But not be considered submissive
Be feminine without being weak

I want to be unfiltered
Unedited
Undefined
Unburdened by expectations

But I still want you to love me
Me

So I remain

Filtered